You know, working on a theater show gives me huge willpower to finally get rid of those fears! Well, not completely I'll always stay shy. But a bit shy doesn't have to be bad as long as you can have a nice life. And there are people who like shy persons.
Remember this drawing?
If I had time to make a new one, I would draw myself with weapons, beaten up that big monster and more monsters on the (less longer) road, but with smaller size.
Yes, I defeated the big monster! It took me a lot days of crying and trying and failing, but I did it! With people learning me how to deal with my fears and people giving me something awesome to look forward to I could get my life energy back, I could push the monster a bit further away so I'm not on the edge anymore, and they gave me weapons to be able to defeat the monster.
There are still a lot scary things I have to do if I want to make this theater show a succes, which is a good thing because the show is so awesome, my willpower is stronger than the fears so I can overcome them. For a long time I couldn't beat my fears because I just didn't have something to beat it for (other than the vague long term happyness). Now I have something to fight for!
Last time I practised with my partner I had to do something scary too, but she kinda pushed me to do it. And I did it. Yaay. I'm so happy with the person I chose. Can't wait for more.
So uhm, yeah. Big things happening in my life!!
The audience will see not only an awesome show, but also a grown person. Which makes me hope people I know come too, to show them how much I've grown. From the super scared shy girl, to the super awesome couragous person who made her own show!